Bah

[demonia]

You know the one. Where you think that nothing would change if you just disappeared for real?

I don't like feeling this way, and trust me when I say that I don't want to either. I'd say it's not a way to try and get attention, but that's exactly what I'm lacking. No, not on the site. People I'd talk to on a regular basis have drifted away. Some just ignore and decide not to realize I'm around. You know, the ones that are really on, keep up an away message so that no one bugs them, and chooses who to talk to.

Then watch them say 'you never said anything' when the issue comes up.

I just know that, if I uninstalled my instant messengers, turned off my phone for good, and isolated myself... No one would do anything, or care. Part of me says that it knows this is true. Another says that someone might think of something about it...

This has kept me depressed enough that I don't want to work on my art. It becomes an issue of 'it doesn't matter.' Hell, barely anyone looks at the crap anyway.

I suppose I'll just have to blame this on weather, or something. Maybe... I just don't feel like typing, or doing anything, anymore.